Saturday, 1 January 2011

2010 and 2011

..another year over and a new one just begun!!!

2010 was a bit of a rollercoaster year to say the least with highs and lows!!!!!

More than me knows I'm gay now - Yay!!, but although my wife knows, we still in the same house and its not fun...

2011 will see the end of this charade will be better for both of us that a clean break is made

2010 has seen me make some new friends...some of them are people i just say Hi to online occasionally, some i swap 140 character messages with, some i chat to online, and some are now proper friends. Without them, i couldnt have done it. Lots of you online have had a part to play.

The return of Jessie made me so happy, and seeing how his life is going gives me hope..he doesnt talk much but he was one of the first to accept me onlne. T!..has been lovely, he as provided me with hope, humour and advice since i came across him. I hope to meet him one day, to thank him properly for everything. Mark and Glen were both there on the end of an email for a friendly chat. There have been so many online who i want to thank...Adam, Mark, Nic ;-) ,David x 2, Tim, Elliot, Phil, Adam..theres probably alot more to be honest

2010 has also seen me start and explore my gay sexuality as well..not that im ticking things to do off a checklist, but, well i am sort of...i dont know if i like something until ive tried it ;-)

So what does 2011 have in store..i have some resolutions or objectives:

Firstly, i want to be able to run 5km in under 20 minutes..this is possible if i work hard and eat better. I also want to beat last years half marathon time as well..i think i can do 1 hour 30 mins!! Allied to this is generally doing more exercise...keep the swimming up and cycle more..maybe a triathlon may be on the cards lol!

Secondly, I will be leaving my wife this year..its going to be harder than anything thats happened this year. She is going to be distraught despite me trying to make this whole thing as easy as possible on her...I just want to have closure so we can both start new lives.

Thirdly, sort my business/job/career out...ive been playing at working for too long..i need to get serious and sort it out so i have a better career life balance..if i find a guy i love, he cant be expected to come second to my work

I think thats it for now..i may think of others but if i have achieved those things by the end of 2011 i will be happy


  1. Wow, sounds like a good year, and that it could be an amazing yearmif everything goes to plan.
    Everything here is achievable is you stick to it and dont back out, so stay strong.
    And it is still a shame about your wife, and a part of me wants you two to stay together, just so that it doesnt end. (hrm, i dont know how to word that part lol) but i know that it needs to be done so that you two can move on and find true and complete happyness. So i wish you the best of luck next year :)

    Jack xx

  2. Great comments on the past year and nice resolutions too. I can't imagine how hard your life must me but I hope it all works out for the best in the end. You deserve it as you're a decent guy.

    I blogged today also about making new online friends in the past year - it's starting to come between me and the bf though. I'd miss you guys but I guess I have to prioritise the real world. Can the two exist side by side?

  3. Happy new year!

    A reminder, hope you can take part...

  4. Good luck with 2011 -- it sounds like it will be a complicated year!