..another year over and a new one just begun!!!
2010 was a bit of a rollercoaster year to say the least with highs and lows!!!!!
More than me knows I'm gay now - Yay!!, but although my wife knows, we still in the same house and its not fun...
2011 will see the end of this charade though..it will be better for both of us that a clean break is made
2010 has seen me make some new friends...some of them are people i just say Hi to online occasionally, some i swap 140 character messages with, some i chat to online, and some are now proper friends. Without them, i couldnt have done it. Lots of you online have had a part to play.
The return of Jessie made me so happy, and seeing how his life is going gives me hope..he doesnt talk much but he was one of the first to accept me onlne. T!..has been lovely, he as provided me with hope, humour and advice since i came across him. I hope to meet him one day, to thank him properly for everything. Mark and Glen were both there on the end of an email for a friendly chat. There have been so many online who i want to thank...Adam, Mark, Nic ;-) ,David x 2, Tim, Elliot, Phil, Adam..theres probably alot more to be honest
2010 has also seen me start and explore my gay sexuality as well..not that im ticking things to do off a checklist, but, well i am sort of...i dont know if i like something until ive tried it ;-)
So what does 2011 have in store..i have some resolutions or objectives:
Firstly, i want to be able to run 5km in under 20 minutes..this is possible if i work hard and eat better. I also want to beat last years half marathon time as well..i think i can do 1 hour 30 mins!! Allied to this is generally doing more exercise...keep the swimming up and cycle more..maybe a triathlon may be on the cards lol!
Secondly, I will be leaving my wife this year..its going to be harder than anything thats happened this year. She is going to be distraught despite me trying to make this whole thing as easy as possible on her...I just want to have closure so we can both start new lives.
Thirdly, sort my business/job/career out...ive been playing at working for too long..i need to get serious and sort it out so i have a better career life balance..if i find a guy i love, he cant be expected to come second to my work
I think thats it for now..i may think of others but if i have achieved those things by the end of 2011 i will be happy